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14.10.02

a friend of mine received the following from an anonymous email address. it really does exceed the oddness of traditional spam, & i'm not sure how i feel about it beyond that it freaked him out...perhaps because he identifies with it...


They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you
stop going along with the crowd and start realizing
that there are a lot of things about yourself that you
didn't know and may not like. You start feeling
insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or
two, but then get scared because you barely know where
you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that,
maybe, those friends that you thought you were so
close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have
ever met and the people you have lost touch with are
some of the most important ones. What you do not
realize is that they are realizing that too and are
not really cold or catty or mean or insincere, but
that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job. It is not even close to what you
thought you would be doing or maybe you are looking
for one and realizing that you are going to have to
start at the bottom and are scared. You miss the
comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with
the same people on a constant basis. But then you
realize that maybe they weren't so great after all.

You are beginning to understand yourself and what you
want and do not want.

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what
others are doing and find yourself judging a bit more
than usual because suddenly you realize that you have
certain boundaries in your life and add things to your
list of what is acceptable and what is not. You are
insecure and then secure.

You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your
life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly
change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the
past with dear life but soon realize that the past is
drifting further and further away and there is nothing
to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You feel like you are still young, but at the same
time panic at the thought of getting old, the thought
of approaching the big 30, but strangely look forward
to your contradicting thoughts. Because you know in
another 30 years, you will be able to retire.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you
loved could do such damage to you or you lay in bed
and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough to
get to know better. You love someone but maybe love
someone else too and cannot figure out why you are
doing this because you are not a bad person. One night
stands and random hook ups start to look cheap and
getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to
look pathetic.

You go through the same emotions and questions over
and over and talk with your friends about the same
topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.

You worry about loans and money and the future and
making a life for yourself and while winning the race
would be great, right now you'd just like to be a
contender! What you may not realize is that everyone
reading this relates to it.

We are in our best of times and our worst of times.



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